the 3 that changed me - Page 57

acidicavex · #**841** 10-01-2013, 09:25 AM

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Originally Posted by curiouslala

Ermm..
U know I dun anyhow rape ppl de..

Acid kor..
Sorry ar..

Sorry for?? Haha I am very happy u not interested

kittymae · #**842** 11-01-2013, 01:28 AM

::intermission::

For all the advice I've dished out on the forum thru my tenure here, sadly when it comes to my own self, I'm at a loss.

What I want is simple and has been the same.
Simply u (yes u, Mr T). That's as clear as it gets.
To wake up each morning beside u
To worry if u had lunch or not
Fret over ure unwell
Visit the supermarket hand in hand, not fighting on what to buy, but who gets more
Sharing the cooking n washing up load
Maybe I'll,throw a soap bubble at u, and u'll pounce on me to get back at me, and we end up having post wash-up sex?
Lazing together, reading manga, or YouTube videos
Once in awhile, hit the streets, anywhere, anytime we feel like, just window shopping or catch a movie.
U'll sneak in a kiss like u sometimes do, in the elevator, the escalators...
Pigging out on b&J ice cream together
Always Feeling like we're the most boring people ard-we probably are
And Hug each other to sleep at night, contentment.

Yet the simplest things are the hardest to achieve...
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One's past is invariably haRd to forget or let go off. Some more than others.
But if it is regret and pity things had ended as such then, it will pass...

But if u should find that there are still lingering affections, feelings of love for that one in the past...
If u find u can't be truly happy, even if I stay by ur side.
Maybe that space beside u isn't meant for me. We aren't meant to be.

Please live happily.
Truly happily.

Cos u deserve to be too

SammyNewbie · #**843** 11-01-2013, 03:17 PM

Same goes for everyone regarding the advice thing

*offers hot milk to kitty in a tea cup*

kittymae · #**844** 11-01-2013, 04:11 PM

Sorry peeps. No further updates on T.
And unlikely in future either.
Things have taken a turn for the negative. ..not too rosy.

Mr T needs a timeout to settle his affairs.
And time he shall receive. Along with space.
Whether I'd be there when he is thru is another thing.
But just saying it'll be his regret just doesn't cut it at all.

Once upon a time it was supposed to be the next time he held me, he wouldn't let me go again.
And yet...

I'm not unhappy, not upset w him.
I'm upset with the situation.
This situation that prevents us from being together properly, a properly defined relation.
Solve it. Make a clean cut of the past n present...
A passive approach never really works well.

I really do think in an ideal world, things could be perfect for us.
Sadly...

Maybe I'm impatient. Maybe I am selfish thinking of my position only...
Or maybe I should hv demanded a proper status. Demanded an immediate resolution.
Held him to promises n expectations.

Maybe that why I failed now like I did thrice before.
Maybe I'm one of those not mean to find happiness.
It eludes me. As always

Signing out....

spwk1f · #**845** 11-01-2013, 05:34 PM

so sad...hope mr E will settle those past and go back to kits..

BMW69 · #**846** 11-01-2013, 10:08 PM

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Originally Posted by spwk1f

so sad...hope mr E will settle those past and go back to kits..

Ehhhh bro why suddenly got a Mr E pop out? O.o Where are you reading? How come I never see before.

BMW69 · #**847** 11-01-2013, 10:12 PM

I understand exactly what you mean Jie. Sometimes there are some people we can't let go. We find someone else and try to make things work out. I'm just glad that you 2 realised that it wasn't going to work out early enough. The later you realise it, the more painful it will be for you. For him, he will just try to go back to whoever it is and he might not even feel anything. You should know what I'm talking about yea... If you need someone to talk to or anything, you know who to look for

kittymae · #**848** 11-01-2013, 10:28 PM

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Originally Posted by BMW69

I understand exactly what you mean Jie. Sometimes there are some people we can't let go. We find someone else and try to make things work out. I'm just glad that you 2 realised that it wasn't going to work out early enough. The later you realise it, the more painful it will be for you. For him, he will just try to go back to whoever it is and he might not even feel anything. You should know what I'm talking about yea... If you need someone to talk to or anything, you know who to look for

U have not understood at all.

kittymae · #**849** 11-01-2013, 10:41 PM

Thanks all for the words of encouragement and well wishes
It gets lonely when there is no one in real life that I can share my feels and thought with.
No friends or family support for various reasons, and this thread, forum becomes my sole outlet.
For whatever little comfort I can derive.

As he wished; I'll let T remain anonymous...

Like I mentioned, it's the situation I'm upset about.

"I can see the pain living in ur eyes
And I know how hard u try
U deserve to have so much more
I can feel ur heart and I sympathise
And I'll never criticize
All u ever meant to my life

I will never let u down
I will never lead u on
I will never hold u back from where u might belong...

...u deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of.
Losing u is painful to me"

Once again. Thanks & take care all bros n sis...

acidicavex · #**850** 11-01-2013, 10:55 PM

..... Just release your thought here kitty. At least there are a bunch of ppl with different life experience can share your woos. Although we can't help much all I can say I believe most of your thread support will borrow you their eyes and heart to read and feel and share your burden.

Letting it will lessen the burden no one is too blame when such situation arise. Life is full on uncertain u have already somewhat prepare mentally that things might turn out otherwise.

So for the time being kitty just share your thoughts here my dear at least it is channel to release rather than holding it inside.

Tear will roll heart will hurt but life doesn't end there and than.

Easier said than done I know.

BMW69 · #**851** 11-01-2013, 11:14 PM

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Originally Posted by kittymae

U have not understood at all.

Orh. Sorry

misunderstood ba

spwk1f · #**852** 12-01-2013, 08:50 AM

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Originally Posted by BMW69

Ehhhh bro why suddenly got a Mr E pop out? O.o Where are you reading? How come I never see before.

bro BMW,

go back @ page 25 then you can see. that's why i think Mr. E is also Mr. T

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Back to the main story.
While I felt shy, E was seemed used to this, stripping rather quickly (IMO) and heading to shower.
I slowly unzipped my dress and unclasped my bra and removed my panties...
From then, everything that happened became blurred to me.

BMW69 · #**853** 12-01-2013, 10:31 AM

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Originally Posted by spwk1f

bro BMW,

go back @ page 25 then you can see. that's why i think Mr. E is also Mr. T

... Ok

Helohelo · #**854** 12-01-2013, 10:43 AM

Cool.... girl....

SammyNewbie · #**855** 12-01-2013, 02:31 PM

Hey Kitty Kat!

I'm veli soli to hear that it didn't work out.

Are you doing ok? I hope you are still eating regularly, and umm showering and observing proper hygiene like licking yourself.

I'm not too good at saying words of comfort at breakups. I just mostly listen XD. So I will sing the song my Dad always sings to get me to wake up to eat lunch on weekends or in the mornings, even though I am 26 now and it gets annoying at times >.<".

描描描
真啊真快乐
今天小熊家里请客
我门到他家里去
又吃又玩又唱歌
描描描描描描
真啊真快乐～～～～

I don't suggest you watch Le Miserables though it will help you get a good cry. That show is too tragic, and will upset your emotional balance.

Ask a female friend to go out and watch 'Taxi Taxi' with you! Then after that can go shopping also.

Take care lah Kitty Kat. I think alot of Samsters here would like to see you back as your normal self again.