the 3 that changed me

[kittymae]

Right... I better nip this in the bud
Bro S-> ur fault here..

Both T & I are responsible enough. My comment was merely to respond to Bro s remark. While precautions are taken (in this case it was really at the end of my period & I'm actually on e pill as well), if accidents happen, I won't cry and blame anyone, but rather take on that responsibility. That life isn't mine to take (if it happens).

Thanks for all the kind concern and comments, I really appreciate it.
And it's comforting to know that there are bros out there who take this really seriously... Ever thought being ambassadors for safe sex? Heheh

And I am NOT baking any buns!!!
Bro S... U better clear this up :/

Aside: illuminati bro... I actually do play some computer games.. And I do play some sports actually.. And believe it or not, I do know the offside rule and not watch soccer to oogle at the players... Haha...
I ain't exactly ur typical girl girl..

[Sen5eS]

my Bad ... ignore all my posts ... I was the irresponsible one

Just means that accidents can happen (whether your period is ending or you're pill free week) so take precautions.

I did not imply that you are desperately seeking a bun in the oven ...

[acidicavex]

Originally Posted by rubberduckygirl

when i read your story, there somehow a sense of familiarity.
who i am today... indeed was changed by my past few failed relationships.
everytime i try to crawl and learn to stand, i just fall all over again.

probably a decade ago.. when im still in poly i would have thought likewise - to save it up for marriage. afterall its a sacred thing. but hell, midway thru university, i lost it. due to some reasons, we broke up.. then i got together with another guy.. and 3 months later, i got dumped. till date i dont know whats the reason, and neither am i keen to know. cos deep down in my heart, i know. he's probably looking for gratification.. of sorts. and i happen to share the same wavelength as him.

once bitten, twice shy. as much as i wanted to look for someone to love again. a part of me is also afraid that guys these days just wanted to a hole to unload their ammo in and not looking for commitments. its just saddening to know once guys get past the pleasantries stage, they would ask for more, e.g. kiss and hug (nothing harmless right) and then before you know it, their hands would wander around, and you know whats gonna happen next.

my fwb is one i met online. and right from the beginning, he was outright about his status. he obviously couldnt offer me things that other guys could - like going for movies, going on dinner dates etc. but things were a lot better as we progress, and i gotta admit there were a lot of times i wanted him to be mine only. but i know i couldnt. i had to get tough sometimes to remind him theres someone else who needs you more than i do. sometimes i get to see him only once a week if im lucky. or when im not i might only get a glimpse of him once a month.

so kittymae, jiayou. one day you will meet someone who can make you forget that you were once hurt before. =)

wah long time no see you posting very busy is it?

[kittymae]

Bro S.. U sure have a way of doing things.. Adding ur own touch.. Haha

But nonetheless I really appreciate all the well meant advices and wishes.

No more updates at the moment really and I doubt for a whole.. So...
Time for me to bug all my fav writers again!

[kittymae]

Thanks rubberducky babe for sharing ur POV

I admire ur tenacity to carry on wat u have even though u don't get to meet him regularly.. But sometimes... These things happen.. I can understand in a way

Enjoy the moments!

[kittymae]

Minor Live Update
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The short story with T is, he felt rather conscious of how shagged out after our sessions and was really making excuses to me for a timeout to get his stamina back in line. He has this need to constantly feed his alter-ego as a gift to sex-starved women. Haha
Of cos, the above paragraph is far from the truth... And I ain't good at fiction..

What really is..?
The problem with T was he was at some sort of 'mid-life crisis' and need to sort things out. It wouldn't be fair for me to, even as a friend to get embroiled in all that, so elected to put a stop to our sleeping together, and also any chances of being proper friends

Hearing his explanation out things in perspective for me. I myself faced similar situations so could understand Where T was coming from.
I thanked T for his honesty, and respect his decision. So we aren't gonna continue slpg together. Well, for now. We'll see about the future- im still not sure i can get used to anything less than him.... Lols

Things are gladly back to how they were before. I'm glad we had e chance to meet and work our arrangement out.
Of cos me being me, I couldn't help to pose some temptation to T, testing his resolve to 'take me' , in public, no less- earning a grope on my right breast and some caresses
And believe me, T surely gd some freaky mind power... Cos his lower body was reacting- verified by yours truly.

I enjoyed the times with T tho. Even if we don't continue slpg together, i still have good memories... And of his weak spots.. Lols
And if we do, I need bath tub.
It's an unfulfilled item on the 'to do' list.

Thanks for all e concern, well wishes from all. people say online can be a cold world... But I think u all (u know who u are), have proven otherwise

[Sen5eS]

Sex in a Jacuzzi would be more spacious plus the water jets might be useful as well & Don't forget the candles/aroma-oils/chocolate/wine/chill-out-tunes ..

hahaha once you go BLACK ... you never go Back

[BernardFrosty]

Been reading this thread for a while. Kitty and all the resident readers who made this lively and intriguing. There had been various conjuncture that I had wanted to jump in and post some words of my own. I am glad that I had held off till the end .

I really liked how it's someone writing and laying it bare for all to see. It's not the erotism but the brutal honesty that has drawn me. While sex is physical and a primeval instinct. I think it is the mind that differentiate us from animals. Dolphins are the only known living thing other than human beings that copulates for sheer pleasure. Dolphins are intelligent beings and I firmly believe that it solicits emotional gratification other than sheer physical release.

I've digress to that of a marine biologist.

I tend to disagree with the title of this thread "The 3 that changed me", Lol. I don't think Kitty has changed. Point of view yes but the core of it is still Kitty. Think all 3 plus Mr T are just onion skin peelers while the core had always been the same. They are just mirrors giving you a reality check...a rather harsh one though. As the thinner outer layers are peeled, it just leave you with a stronger and more resilient layer.

Some recovers from a bad relationship by looking for a rebound. It works but very often, it is just a jump from one shit hole into another. I've got female friends that had made a habit of it. Some even took failed marriages to get the right message. They're looking for anchors but more often than not, they picked the anchors that actually sinks them.

People that wears that heart on their sleeves make some of the best friends but also suffers the hardest knocks.

Stay true to your beliefs. You'll get there.

[queeniegal]

Originally Posted by BernardFrosty

Been reading this thread for a while. Kitty and all the resident readers who made this lively and intriguing. There had been various conjuncture that I had wanted to jump in and post some words of my own. I am glad that I had held off till the end .

I really liked how it's someone writing and laying it bare for all to see. It's not the erotism but the brutal honesty that has drawn me. While sex is physical and a primeval instinct. I think it is the mind that differentiate us from animals. Dolphins are the only known living thing other than human beings that copulates for sheer pleasure. Dolphins are intelligent beings and I firmly believe that it solicits emotional gratification other than sheer physical release.

I've digress to that of a marine biologist.

I tend to disagree with the title of this thread "The 3 that changed me", Lol. I don't think Kitty has changed. Point of view yes but the core of it is still Kitty. Think all 3 plus Mr T are just onion skin peelers while the core had always been the same. They are just mirrors giving you a reality check...a rather harsh one though. As the thinner outer layers are peeled, it just leave you with a stronger and more resilient layer.

Some recovers from a bad relationship by looking for a rebound. It works but very often, it is just a jump from one shit hole into another. I've got female friends that had made a habit of it. Some even took failed marriages to get the right message. They're looking for anchors but more often than not, they picked the anchors that actually sinks them.

People that wears that heart on their sleeves make some of the best friends but also suffers the hardest knocks.

Stay true to your beliefs. You'll get there.

Ups! (= agreed

[rushforlust]

Originally Posted by kittymae

Realistically, folks here are unlikely to be looking for something that last.
Despite how it seems,I'm just like every other gal with her own set of insecurities and confidence issues. Coupled with past experiences, I kinda doubt that even more.

The choices were either I wallow in self pity at things that have changed me, and that I do not have to power to change, or
I could leave it behind and try every day to find a reason to smile...that was kinda like a promise, I made to the 3rd...

frankly speaking sis
from my point of view , no guys can be that faithful as what written in fairy story or idol show
in my real life, all my gang fren tends to flirt times to times and covering each other, most of us are married at the moment but yet we still have the need to try more new sexual things, u knows, every gal have a unique feeling, that is wat make us unfaithful and sink into the darkness

[Iluminati]

Alright, actually I have been holding back myself from posting this post for quite some time for fear of hurting your feeling. But in the end, I decided that doing nothing would be worse.

Personally, I think in a way you are playing with fire, don't get burned ok. First of all, in my opinion, it is never healthy to start off a relationship with sex. I think what you had with Mr. T is your sexual awakening.
A new 'Toy' is always fun to play with at the beginning. But how long can a relationship last if it feeds on lust and sex? 2 months? 6 months? What happen when the sparks has gone off? Is it going to be like going thru the motion after he has laid down all his skills and tricks?

What happen next? In the end of the day, are we going to see a kitten licking over a wounded heartache again? That would be back to square one again.

I know it is rude, but I sincerely and honestly dread where the day one said "I told you so" will come.

Life is like a marathon and not a race towards a checked flag. You are beautiful. Trust me when i said you are beautiful. To have three guys fallen in love with you must speak of something right. Eventually, your day will come, it's just that the cupid arrow has not strike you yet.

[rubberduckygirl]

Originally Posted by acidicavex

wah long time no see you posting very busy is it?

hahah. ya lor. miss me ah? i downgrade to silent reader ma. =X

[kittymae]

Originally Posted by Iluminati

Alright, actually I have been holding back myself from posting this post for quite some time for fear of hurting your feeling. But in the end, I decided that doing nothing would be worse.

Personally, I think in a way you are playing with fire, don't get burned ok. First of all, in my opinion, it is never healthy to start off a relationship with sex. I think what you had with Mr. T is your sexual awakening.
A new 'Toy' is always fun to play with at the beginning. But how long can a relationship last if it feeds on lust and sex? 2 months? 6 months? What happen when the sparks has gone off? Is it going to be like going thru the motion after he has laid down all his skills and tricks?

What happen next? In the end of the day, are we going to see a kitten licking over a wounded heartache again? That would be back to square one again.

I know it is rude, but I sincerely and honestly dread where the day one said "I told you so" will come.

Life is like a marathon and not a race towards a checked flag. You are beautiful. Trust me when i said you are beautiful. To have three guys fallen in love with you must speak of something right. Eventually, your day will come, it's just that the cupid arrow has not strike you yet.

Hey, thanks for the warnings.. I do hear u.
Well, I've been 'burned' before so as to speak and am more cautious of putting myself entirely out there.
I doubt there is any sort of 'relationship' between myself & Mr T (or Mr Toy is u wish ) at least not in the way u may be thinking of. In any case, no one comes to this forum expecting anything committal or long-term. At least that I'm realistic enough, anything else would be a bonus.

Thanks for e compliments tho uve never actually seen this kitty...
If that day comes, it comes, I'm not holding out for sthg to happen anyway. If it does, it does... Hoping or expecting too much brings about greater disappointment.
Perhaps BernardFrosty got it somewhat right...these experience changed my POV on many things. Yet in another way I also exploring different facets of myself thru each of these experiences.
I may have to lick my wounds in future, hear all the 'I told u so', but at e least I took a chance- if nothing but to add my experiences in life.

But again, thanks for the well meaning words. I do appreciate when people don't sugarcoat the truth or glaze over it...

[acidicavex]

Originally Posted by kittymae

Hey, thanks for the warnings.. I do hear u.
Well, I've been 'burned' before so as to speak and am more cautious of putting myself entirely out there.
I doubt there is any sort of 'relationship' between myself & Mr T (or Mr Toy is u wish ) at least not in the way u may be thinking of. In any case, no one comes to this forum expecting anything committal or long-term. At least that I'm realistic enough, anything else would be a bonus.

Thanks for e compliments tho uve never actually seen this kitty...
If that day comes, it comes, I'm not holding out for sthg to happen anyway. If it does, it does... Hoping or expecting too much brings about greater disappointment.
Perhaps BernardFrosty got it somewhat right...these experience changed my POV on many things. Yet in another way I also exploring different facets of myself thru each of these experiences.
I may have to lick my wounds in future, hear all the 'I told u so', but at e least I took a chance- if nothing but to add my experiences in life.

But again, thanks for the well meaning words. I do appreciate when people don't sugarcoat the truth or glaze over it...

Would it be better if I say u do that somemore u will burn in hell?? Not sugarcoating right? Hahaha

[acidicavex]

Originally Posted by rubberduckygirl

hahah. ya lor. miss me ah? i downgrade to silent reader ma. =X

Ya lo mizzzzzz u so much haha when catch up? Extension open liao I bet u not familiar anymore although u hang around that place often once hahaha.