On a journey we call LIFE

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P and I continued on with our wonderful relationship, and it was more than enough for me. We had our days and fights but at the end it was always getting made up mutually that made us stronger. I have a temper which I don't show, I'm very descriptive facially but I cool down quick. My past, have shaped me to a point where I can let go emotionally of someone no matter how close she got to my soul. But P doesn't know that yet. She had her temper and her tantrums but it was all manageable so we continued on for a year plus nearing two. But we were happy at that time and nothing could stop us.

I previously said I was invited to P's class bbq at ECP in a chalet where it was convenient for me and her since it was a short drive from her house and shorter from mine. P told me she was staying overnight and wanted me to do it too, which was a great idea. Public sex! First thing on my mind.

Friday night, I got dressed and packed for the overnight stay, brought some food I bought and drove over to pick P up. She was in a black tank top and shorts, just the way I like it. Helped her load her stuff, pinned her against the car for a quick make out session and got back into the car.

M: "You look gorgeous baby"
P: "You say it no matter what I wear"
M: "Hell darlin' I'd rather you not wear anything right now"
P: "No baby, people will look!"
M: "All the more they can see my Princess is mine, every hole, inch and cranny"
P: "Baby let's fuck first before we go"
M: "I want to rape you"

She was turned on. Hell, I was turned on. I drove to the MSCP at the other block and drove up to the top level, got out and got into the back seat. I drove a 7-seater car so there was plenty of room to go around I grabbed her hard, pulled her hair, claimed her lips roughly and literally raped the shit out of her, clothes and all. She didn't reject or said no, she moaned and screamed and grabbed whatever she could. The headrest, my hair, my shirt, my arm, whatever she could find. I pumped into her like a man possessed and at one point I just stopped, looked into her eyes, pulled her hair and made her look straight into mine and growled, "I fucking love you." And then I slammed into her, driving her into wild throes of passion. At the end of it all, we were disorientated, and spent, perspiring, but who cared. "I love you too. With my heart." she whispered into my ear. We straightened ourselves out as best as we can, and proceeded to ECP. I couldn't stop smiling.

We reached the chalet, and headed to the unit. I met a few recognizable faces of P's friends, hugs and pecks on their cheeks while I lit a cigarette and surveyed the scene. My Princess was busy unpacking and talking to her classmates, some were hot alright. I probably will get to know them later anyway. And then I remembered...

M: "B, I forgot to get the booze"
P: "Oh ya! Just head to 7-11 and get some liquor and whatever you want. Here's the money"

She handed me the money she collected from her friends for the alcohol and I drove to 7-11. Lazy bastard, I know.

Got quite an amount of cash, got some bottles, beers, and 3 packs of ice and brought back to the chalet. Unloaded all into a cooler box to let the beers chill and arranged the assortment of liqour on the table.

As the night went on, P introduced her friends to me. Some brought their boyfriends along, some single and the 3 chinese girls that caught my eye were last as they were busy changing into something more comfortable. 1 had a boyfriend there, cool chap, one's bf was in army and one was single. It was all fun and merry, food was okay but I loved bbq so it was good for me. Beers and drinks were being consumed well and it was soon near midnight. Some headed back, some walked on the beach and P, a little high was sitting on my lap.

P: "B, my friend said you're cute. I'm jealous" She pouted. So cute!
M: "I couldn't keep my eyes off you babe"
P: "Awww baby" She kissed me. The bbq smell on her was shiok
M: "But really, she said that?" I gestured to the single one on the other side talking to another girl
P: "Yah. Is she pretty?"
M: "Yeah, honestly pretty hot. How is she even single?"
P: "No idea. Look at her legs and butt. So perky!"
M: "B, you lusting over another girl?!"
P: "No! Just admiring!"
M: "That's hot though. Babe can I ask you something? Hope you won't get angry."
P: "What is it? I think... I know what you're gonna ask.."
M: "Hmmmmm... Really? What did I want to ask?"
P: "I don't know actually hehehe. But what is it?"
M: "Can I have a threesome with you and one of your hot girl friends?"
P: "Oi!!! So naughty!!!"

I thought, "Well.. I tried my luck."

P: "I'm not ready to share you. But, no."
M: "It's fine I'm just asking, Princess. Every man's dream. You're my heart."
P: "Would you let me have a threesome with you and your hot friend?"
M: "No."
P: "My point exactly."

She wasn't angry. But I understood her. And I wasn't sad or disappointed, just a stab in the dark. It was different to me, though. Having someone else fuck your loved one, and having your loved one fuck someone else. Totally different right? Maybe it was just me. But I was contented with my Princess. I hugged her tight and held on as we sat quietly enjoying the sights and sounds as the cool ocean breeze blew. We cuddled, she straddled me, hugged me back and rested her cheek on my shoulder as she hummed her favourite tune in my ear.

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Later on that night, we copulated right at the living room of the chalet, right smack in the middle on the cold tiled floor. It just happened, and it was pretty exhilarating knowing that any of her friends upstairs could come down for a toilet visit, and I would think we weren't that all quiet either. But, at the end of the night, I was satisfied, didn't get my threesome but I wasn't bothered at all by it. Had a shower together with my Princess, and it was challenging squeezing both of us into a cramped toilet. Well, we made do with it and ended up in there for a good half an hour...

As I've mentioned, we weren't always on good terms. Over the course of our relationship, over a period of one and a half years, we broke up and patched once. I never had any likability trait about patching up as I think it never is the same anymore, But our relationship came to an end over the most trivial thing ever. It hurts me badly then, it still does now, and for all that's worth... at that time, it made a grown-assed man cry. I never knew her true colours. Until that period of 2 months...

M: Baby, I haven't seen you in a while. Shall we go out for lunch or dinner?
P: You know I have a paper coming up next week and I must prepare for it!
M: But, I promise not to bring you out far and too late, it's just dinner. I missed you.
P: Baby, I'm really in trouble for this paper and I really have to knuckle down for it.
M: Really? Not even for 2 hours of your precious time? I won't go any longer than that I promise.
P: No baby. I can't, I'm sorry. I'll call you soon.
With that, she hung up.

Yes. I was THAT pathetic. Nothing ruins a moment where you start begging. And I did that. I reflected over months why din't I have seen this coming. We argued over trivial matters. Some spanning up to 2 weeks. And it was so regular that I couldn't escape the fact that I felt that I was the fucked up one in the relationship. I loved this girl; mind, body and soul.

As her exams drew nearer, it was even colder. Less texting, less calling. I went over to her place and all she could spare me was 15 minutes under the block and said she had to go. And that was it. 3 days left to her examinations, which would span a couple of days and then it would be my turn. I made a point to do something for moral support on every one of those 3 last days and through her examinations. I would buy snacks and chocolates, snack bars, chicken essence, whatever that would get her by the days. I would go to her place and meet her, even if it was only for a short time to have her in my arms and to tell her how much she meant to me. And to give her moral support to say that I was there through good times and the hard times. Amazing huh, how much a man can change?


I have to stop at this point. There is no point going through this as I was frankly really tired of the arguments. Every single time I would pacify her, accept the blame to just make things right. Over months, I could feel us crumbling apart. I did not want to lose her. Because of this, I have become someone that can be extremely cold, and stay that way no matter how my brain says to do otherwise. I have come to a point where I do not want to beg, I can show my weakness but if you exploit it for the sake of putting me down, I'll let you go. Because of this, it re-emphasized my point to never go back to someone after a break up. Patching, does not work. Once bitten, twice shy as they said.

What made me break, to go over the breaking point was on a Sunday night that week, studying with my mate, as our paper was the next day. She called..

P: Baby, let's go for dinner later.
M: B, I'm currently studying, my paper is tomorrow afternoon. I told you remember?
P: But I haven't had a day out with you since forever! I know it was supposed to be on Wednesday and I'm sorry!
(We planned a date to go out but she cancelled at the last minute cause she wanted to go out with her friends)
M: No, it's really okay. But I really need my revision tonight la darling.
P: Please? Just dinner okay? Anyway your paper is at 4 so you have time! Take a break?
M: We see how, I'll check how much I have to go through at the moment.
P: No! I don't care you better go out with me.
M: Don't you understand? I have a paper tomorrow! Not like you? A week?
P: That's different. I have a lot to study not like you.
M: What?! Are you really serious right now?
P: Yes. I'm fucking serious. I don't care, tonight.
M: Go date yourself. Bye.

At that point, I was very frustrated with the amount I have left to revise and now her. God. And I felt my anger rising, but trying to keep a lid on it. My friend saw my face.

H: Mate just tell her to wait la. Freaking paper is tomorrow man.
M: Fuck la I know it's tomorrow la. And then later this will all be my fault again. Dude I can't take it already la.
H: Dude chill and just revise man.
M: How? She's fucking texting me all the way now. Scolding me too. Like the fuck?
H: Why she so mental?
M: How the fuck I know? Screw it.

Put my phone aside, plugged in my earphones and started scribbling and reading.

2 hours later, 10 missed calls and close to 50 texts, with 80% of it is her being pissed at me. At that point, I had enough. Enough. Enough of the blames, the tantrums, the bullshit, the mollycuddling for her sake, all my effort and all that I meant, all that went out the window and I saw it all. I was blinded, and I never want to be this way again.

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I was done with my exams! All papers attempted, leaving the rest up to fate and how my last minute cramping works for me. I'm now a free man, I can do anything I like... Oh wait.. P...

She has been harping on my case for days, through my exams and whatnot. It's a hassle and I'm already tired of going through my SMS-es full of vulgarities and words laced with anger and I found it annoying. Part of me felt liberated after my exams, and part of me was so sexually deprived for the few weeks of no sex and yeah, it pissed me off. But I wanted this to end so I arranged to meet up with her that night for drinks and a heart to heart talk.

One thing stayed in my mind: "What happened to P? Why was she so different, so... unlike her?"

Met up with her at our usual spot, got a bottle of Sarong Fly and downed a few shots and we talked.

M: What is you deal?
P: My deal? MY DEAL? You couldn't care less about me anymore!
M: You know I was having my exams right?
P: Who told you to study so last minute? You could have studied with me! But no, you didn't even bother accompanying me!
M: Wait, what? You didn't even tell me shit? I had to ask you to go out and you flat out said no! You could have said you wanted me to accompany you right? I came to your place the last few days and NOTHING? What am I, a mind reader now? Geez!
P: You listen here. After all the things I've done for you and now you give me this shit?
M: Oh please just shut it. Why are you so fucking unreasonable?
P: Unreasonable?! Bullshit Zack. Bullshit. What were you doing behind my back huh? You're so different now. So cold and so impatient. You burst out at every single little thing.
M: God, women. You are the problem here, and you're pinning the blame on me? I had enough of this shit P. Every single time, I have to take the blame. I have to say sorry to pacify you. Everything that is bad is my fault. Yeah it's never your fault right? I've done nothing for you.
P: Yeah you still want a threesome with my friend? Couldn't fucking believe you're such a fucking bastard. Probably trying to get into other girl's pants everyday.
M: Yeah.. my fault.

It went on, and on, and on. All her pent up frustrations from god knows what came out on me, bombarding me with knives one after another. To a point where...

M: I'm done. We're done here. Should have never gotten back with you P. Find a better guy.

And with that, I turned away and walked off, leaving behind a woman screaming expletives at me.

Fuck. My. Life.

I sacrificed so much time and effort for her. I did so much. I loved that girl, who was a shadow of what she was. Maybe it was me, maybe it was really me being cold and bored of us being together. Maybe, it was really truly my fault.

That night, many texts and missed calls. Never picked up my phone nor replied to any text. I was a lonely guy, walking around aimlessly, tail between my legs. There goes my fairytale.

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It went on for a few days, then a week, and then another.

Sometimes I would pick up hearing her cries and wanting me back. Sometimes I never picked up. Sometimes it was her cursing me.

Get me out of this hellhole please?

And then, it got quiet. It was over. What do I do now?

At this time, I wasn't a relief teacher anymore. I was in a full time job, which led me to the last non-existent straw in our broken relationship.

I was on duty for Standard Chartered Marathon that year, and had to walk around with my colleague to make sure everything was in order. Bumped into a few old friends along the way, had some chit-chat and catching up before I resumed my duties. We were walking on the opposite side of Raffles City near the tennis courts and then I saw her.

I saw P. With her friends whom I knew. Holding hands with another dude. And one of her friends saw me.

"OMG hi Zack! Long time no see! OMG it's been too long! How are you?"

"Hey Jas. I've been good! Working at the moment. How are you? And you too ladeis! Haven't hung out with you girls for a while!" I addressed Jas and 2 of P's other friends.

"Ya OMG! You look good Zack!" R, another of P's friends said to me. Came in and gave them the customary hug and air kiss on both cheeks to all of them.

"Thanks R. You look sweaty though, but good. And so are you 2 girls too!" I addressed them in kind.

P now was just hugging her dude, probably her boyfriend. Hugging him like she didn't want to let go. Hugging him like he was her most precious thing in her life. Hugging him as if she wanted to make me jealous.

Greeted P, and she replied with a small smile. Greeted the dude with a small nod and he nodded back. Turned around to the other girls and Jas was just pointing at P repeatedly with her eyes and shrugged. I just smiled weakly.

"I have to go now. Keep in touch ladies!" And I continued working.

In my heart... "Fucking bitch."


I got to know when I met Jas, R and S a few weeks later, that P changed. And that they didn't know what happened between us. I just told them it was all me, and that it was over.

"But you were so nice Zack. So freaking nice to her." Jas said.

I shrugged, pushed the topic aside and continued lunching with the 3 girls. It was a very pleasant outing. P was now the furthest thing away. Thank God.

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Is anyone still reading this? Looks dead though. Do PM me if you want me to continue cause suddenly, my fingers are itching to type more

Bro TS

Please continue.
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Yup.

Still following as silent reader.

Cont pls

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TS, u r the 1 mia, we readers r waiting for u to cool down and continue with the updates.

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Life went on pretty much normally from then on. P was out of my life, but she did come back a few months later crying to me over the phone about breaking up with her boyfriend and that he wasn't as good as me or cared as much as I did, but I couldn't really stand her bullshit. However, I did though, agree to meet up for dinner one day with her, after she said that she would be treating me. I mean, it was for free so, I obliged, although with a little apprehension that she might just explode on me again. I might consider slapping her if she did that. Seriously, I ever did have those thoughts of trying to shut her up but I could never lay my hands on her in a violent manner.

P: Hey Zack. Thanks for meeting me again after all the trouble.
M: Sure, it's nice seeing you too. You look great.
P: Thanks, you look good too.
M: Where are we heading for dinner?
P: I've been craving for Astons. Shall we?
M: Your call madam. Anything for free (I said with a snicker)
P: (slaps me on the arm) Always so cheeky

Took a cab down to Beach Road and settled down in our seats while we chit chatted and ate dinner. It was pleasant, but I was still cautious but I had a good time. She enjoyed herself too, smiling and laughing and joking, it was the old P that I fell in love with. (Now, where was the Devil that emerged though?) We ate and after an hour or so, she paid the bill and we left the restaurant.

It was all casual and jovial and she suddenly turned to me with a serious face...
P: Zack, I'm really sorry for what happened. It has been hard, and I really miss you
M: Babe, it's fine, really. If I were to be mad, I wouldn't be here with you.
P: I know, it's just... (she grabs both my hands) forgive me.
M: (I pulled her in for a hug) Hey, sometimes things don't work out. You'll be fine, yes? You'll find someone better than your last one
P: How I wished it was you
M: I'm an ass remember? (I snickered) And what's done is done. It's done and dusted babe.
P: I miss you. (She hugged me tighter)

Now I can feel her breasts on me, and honestly it felt really good, and my little brother stirred from his slumber no matter how I try to think out of it. And she smelled good, and man.... What do I do now?

P: I feel someone getting excited...
M: Oh... uhm... sorry. Uhh... well... yeah. Heh.
P: Can I be your Princess again, for just one more night? Please?
M: Huh? What do you mean? (I was honestly a little blur, and a lot horny)
P: Fuck me.
M: What? Now? You sure? (Turn-off, I know)
P: Yes. Now. I need you.
M: Are you sure? (I'm actually hesitant, because it might lead to something else further on right?)
P: Yes. Tonight, and no more. Just for tonight. Please!
M: Uhh... Okay... Sigh... small head wins big head. Again.

And Hotel 81 was just conveniently situated opposite that place. How.. simple.

Checked in, got into the room and before the door actually closed... she was already on me. Pushing me against the door as it slammed shut. Oh boy.. I was in for something...

TBC.

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Updates pls. Camping

[xcess]

Dude
This rocks. Your style and language are pure drama deconstructed.

Floored!

And for the love of God....don't stop!! :-)

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Ts dont fart too much n forgot to write.
We are all camping here.