newbiezai
03-01-2019, 03:32 PM
hi fellow samsters this is my first and probably only story after lurking around for more than a decade. i have decided to write this story down after seeing this thread and perhaps to leave a legacy and reminder to the rest of the bros/sis here
https://sbf.net.nz/showthread.php?t=176212
disclaimer:this story isn't that much of a sexual post than about my real life experience
it saddens me to see that people always think that people will always be around or they let outside influence affect how they should be together or not but what if just what If you know that you only have a limited time remaining what would you do? always remember you only live life once so live life with no regrets the same goes to love because what is life without that special somebody?
I guess its the equivalent of say you know that you are going to be handicapped from the waist down tomorrow would you mop about it till you lose mobility or would you run and scream and jump and do everything till your hearts content today?
and so here's my story.
i'm 32 this year and since my childhood i grew up in a broken family where my parents fought and quarrelled a lot and when my dad was busy with business while my mum would always be out with her friends. we never did spend much time together as a family be it family dinners / gathering / birthdays / etc as those were considered unproductive time and my dad worked 364.5 days a year leaving only half a day off for CNY
I never experienced love and I craved for it so much since young hence in all my relationships I try my best to make it work but somehow the "love" feeling in me wouldn't come out and to me they were more like companionship and became a habit after years and the closest one would be feeling like family but that's about it I don't feel love to love if you get what I mean like I never did any romantic or sweet gestures towards any of them and even sex wasn't love it was just pure desire or sometimes worse I felt like it was an obligation or a duty.
I didn't take good care of my body since young and partially due to the lack of parental love I did lots of shits like smoking and drinking since young and hence i am diabetic now my kidney now isn't in good shape but i'm trying my best now :)
live not a long life but a meaningful one so that no matter what happens you would never regret it.
to be continued
for those wanting a real tear jerker you can go catch this movie "more than blue" 比悲傷更悲傷的故事 its been out for sometime
and heres the song from the movie :')
never fails to make me tear each time and repeat over and over to remind myself that time is precious so cherish the moments and even the simplest of things that you do together be it dinner or before bed time chats
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRcudpJzy1I
https://sbf.net.nz/showthread.php?t=176212
disclaimer:this story isn't that much of a sexual post than about my real life experience
it saddens me to see that people always think that people will always be around or they let outside influence affect how they should be together or not but what if just what If you know that you only have a limited time remaining what would you do? always remember you only live life once so live life with no regrets the same goes to love because what is life without that special somebody?
I guess its the equivalent of say you know that you are going to be handicapped from the waist down tomorrow would you mop about it till you lose mobility or would you run and scream and jump and do everything till your hearts content today?
and so here's my story.
i'm 32 this year and since my childhood i grew up in a broken family where my parents fought and quarrelled a lot and when my dad was busy with business while my mum would always be out with her friends. we never did spend much time together as a family be it family dinners / gathering / birthdays / etc as those were considered unproductive time and my dad worked 364.5 days a year leaving only half a day off for CNY
I never experienced love and I craved for it so much since young hence in all my relationships I try my best to make it work but somehow the "love" feeling in me wouldn't come out and to me they were more like companionship and became a habit after years and the closest one would be feeling like family but that's about it I don't feel love to love if you get what I mean like I never did any romantic or sweet gestures towards any of them and even sex wasn't love it was just pure desire or sometimes worse I felt like it was an obligation or a duty.
I didn't take good care of my body since young and partially due to the lack of parental love I did lots of shits like smoking and drinking since young and hence i am diabetic now my kidney now isn't in good shape but i'm trying my best now :)
live not a long life but a meaningful one so that no matter what happens you would never regret it.
to be continued
for those wanting a real tear jerker you can go catch this movie "more than blue" 比悲傷更悲傷的故事 its been out for sometime
and heres the song from the movie :')
never fails to make me tear each time and repeat over and over to remind myself that time is precious so cherish the moments and even the simplest of things that you do together be it dinner or before bed time chats
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRcudpJzy1I